Day 39

Day 39
06 / 01 / 2012
(Day Off)

This morning I drew Raidho, the wagon, the journey.  Perhaps that means I should walk around and explore the city while I have a chance.?  Yes, I will do that as soon as I am done writing in my journal. 

So far today all I have done is eat frokost, and lay in bed doing absolutely nothing.  It is nice to have a break from the constant rhythm of the show and just be still.  I don't have a room mate and I have very much enjoyed the solitude and being with my own thoughts. 

I watched a Norwegian fishing show for about 30 minutes.  There were about 20 guys fishing on a river in drizzling rain.  During the entire time I was watching not one fish was caught...riveting television.  American fishing shows only show the parts where the fish are caught so it was quite a different thing.  I later found out that the cameras were on these guys for a full day, it's something they do every year.

I have been thinking a lot about being here, on this show.  I believe I have so far accomplished my goal of being myself; being true to who I am and what I believe in the big picture.  I am proud of that.

Sometimes I feel like an old man, hanging out with all these kids, but not too often.  Sometimes I feel like their older brother, or uncle, and sometimes I feel like their dad.  I keep up with them all physically...we just know the words to different songs.  I don't feel old most of the time...most of the time, I just feel like Alf.

Episode 7 starts tomorrow, it is here, in or around Oslo somewhere.  We have no idea what the theme is or what we will be doing.  What I do know, is that I need to prevail, Gods willing...that is my plan.

Sitting around here with nothing to do really gets my mind wandering.  I am very curious how I will be received by the Norwegian people when the show aires.  I honestly have no idea how it will go, and there is no way to speculate, I just have to wait and see.

I hope of course that I am received well, that people understand and like the person I am.  If it goes otherwise I will deal with it, but it would be unfortunate.  It would be really awesome if my popularity or celebrity status would do something beneficial for my life later on; like help me sell a book, or be on some talk shows or something, that would be pretty cool.  But, it's silly to think too much about that sort of thing.  I'll just keep on being myself and hope for the best.